My days are filled with soothing a fussing baby, rocking, nursing, burping, pumping, wiping all while my 20 month old is whining, getting into things, jumping on the couch and testing my patience. Camden wants me to hold him when I'm holding the baby. The baby wants to be held when I'm in the middle of a fun activity with Camden. I'm being pulled in all directions. On top of that, the nights give me anxiety. Will I get some sleep tonight?
Oh, and forget the house chores. Our house is a permanent disaster. I'm slowly learning to live with it. Things are everywhere. Baby things, toddler toys... just STUFF everywhere. I do my best to keep up with the dishes and laundry, but not much beyond that. My main priority at the moment is making sure these babes are fed, cleaned, entertained and loved.
This is my new normal.
Oh and finding "me" time? This has been a goal of mine and I'm quickly realizing that those times will be very few and far between. It is a miracle that both babies are even sleeping at the same time right now. I told Bill that I will need a few hours every weekend to myself, just to get out of the house. Thank goodness I have a husband that is very understanding and is capable and willing to take care of both our boys so that I can recharge here and there. I think it's hard for us moms to let others know we need a break from our kids. This past Saturday, I went to Hobby Lobby by myself for an hour, probably spent too much money on things for Bennett's nursery and then spent the rest of my remaining half an hour at Starbucks with my laptop. I was so excited, I didn't even get to blogging. All I did was answer a few emails and browse online sites knowing full well I wasn't going to buy anything.
Some of my friends shared this article with me and I think it really struck a cord in my current state of mind. We (moms) forget to take care of ourselves not only physically, but mentally as well. We NEED a break every now and then. We will be better mothers because of it.
I'm sharing all of this with you because I'm not really sure when I will be able to blog for the next few months as things are pretty hectic around here. My priorities have shifted, but I'm hoping to keep it alive as long as I have some 'me' time here and there. The posts may be few and far between.
Just know I am still reading blogs and am being inspired everyday! You guys keep me going! I want to comment more, but I'm mostly on my phone now and it is more difficult to comment. Just know I am reading and following along.
That is all for now. My toddler just woke up early from his nap and is throwing everything out of his crib...Of course!
Back to work! :)